Softly close your eyes…
It's okay if you're cut off from the light,
if you want to see dreams.
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Uruha, of the Japanese band (the) Gazette .
Again, yes, I’m sorry, but right now he’s all I have in me.

I hope for all of you that you never experience what it’s like not to be able to endure sound, heat or light – all at once. It’s horrible I’ll tell you that; all you can do is lie under your covers in your room, which is colder than a fridge because you cannot handle warm air on your skin, in darkness because light scorches you and in utterly loneliness because people breathe and the sound is horribly loud. When you cannot read nor write, you cannot watch TV or hear music. When every thought feels like a stabbing pain and yet your mind keeps racing because God forbid you had a second’s worth of peace. Just... no one should go through this.

Whenever I do fall asleep, even if it is just for mere minutes as the pain wakes me up again soon enough, I keep dreaming of Uruha. And therefore I can smile just the smallest smile when I wake.

He truly is what my dreams are made of

Needless to say that this drawing means a lot to me. I can finally draw again, even if not for long at the time because the pain keeps kicking me, but.. at least I can draw.
So please don’t be too hard on him.

Oh, yeah, and of course my scanner made a blood bath of this, bleh

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^{Medium; pencil.
Time; Uncounted for.
Format; A4
Not for sale .}